Have No Pain.

Swig Your Penicillin With Wine.
Nobody has to Know That Your Heart Is Broken.
Nobody Will Ever Know.
Having Emotions Is a Liability, William Burroughs and Bukowski Warned me.
But I Just Wouldn't Listen.

I envy My Cat.
She never seems to have any Issues, She lives day by day.
But when she loves me she does by not expecting anything back.
I'm not trying to say we should always expect something from someone.
Im just stating that my cat has more emotional wisdom that i do.

I don't know how you are feeling but I get the little signals from everybody.
I've been trying to be sober, I'm a recovering existence escapist. They also call them alcoholics, drug addicts and some people play fucking dnd. Everybody has their drug,
To escape a meaningless existence.

Don't get me wrong.
Nietzsche would punch me in the face.
Im am not a nihilistic person as the vast majority of society will think.
I just think humans in mass are disgusting to serve  evil purposes.
Thank you sick fuck Freud, Special Thanks To Edward Bernays,
Dicks.
Life Doesn't have to be meaningless as long as you make your own purpose but never have that purpose to be dictated.

I believe that you can create your own meaning and that a human life matters. And That emotions are what makes you you.
It pains me that so many people don't want to understand that they are a big part of a fucking cog machine.

Luckily enough I had surrounded myself with people that don't want to be controlled or subdued.
It Sucks when you have to shallow your pride, Because that is the only spark of life that actually might matter.

I still have some plans, I won't die, I refuse to die, I might hit Nietzsche with my dick in my dreams.
Did you know he masturbated naked in tables in front of everybody? I read a book from someone recalling meeting Sartre, Apparently he did the same......


Maybe I should just listen to Camus He didin't masturbate  in public  in front of everybody as far as i know.
Like i might Have.

The Duchess Frog

I was talking to a frog in the brink of madness.

I told him his existence was doubtful, I told him he didint exist.

He or it was a very sad frog. Just like the one in "Alice's Adventures in Wonderland"

He said that i shouldn't have my dick out even thought it was raining and everything was mean. Pouring painful Rain.

I told him boldly ." You are not the fucking boss of me you fucking emo frog".

I went inside,  the duchess was still powdering this baby on pepper over a cauldron. The baby as the story goes became A baby pig.

My dick was out right? I won't do anything that talking frog tells me to do.

There are plentiful ways I'll be an Slave but in my imagination, mind and soul I'm free and I reign supreme.

I went out I pissed on its silly face. It was so cold. I was soaked in the rain.

The pig baby ran by me towards my leg.

I was aiming all along to the frogs left eye I felt like an imaginary bully.

Betrayal And Suicide.

It's A Saturday Morning And I'm Sitting naked Alone on chair.
The Light Coming from my window is very blue, The Air is Very Cold And Dry.
My Cat is In Heat and She is not Mutilated yet, So I can't Quite Peacefully Sleep.
I Don't Resent My Cat She is Quite A Charmer.

I Wonder What Should i Write About With My Purple Stained Mind And Mouth From Wine.
Then I try To Think About Suffering to Keep me writing.
The first 3 people that come to my mind when I talk about suffering is Joan of Arc, Oscar Wilde and Jesus Christ.

The first one was Burnt Alive Because She Believed in Her Cause.  She Had The Coolest Dead if you compare it With Jesus and Oscar Wilde.

In Fact If you Where Burnt at the stake you would actually die Very Fast.
Sure You Would Have an Unbearable pain in Your Legs While The Fire licks Your Thighs.
But The Smoke Will Suffocate you. Humans Don't Tend to Last Long Without Oxygen.

But Now If you want to get Hardcore on the suffering part.
Oscar Wilde Died Alone.
In A Cell Out of Sadness and Betrayal and Injustice.
Love "That Wasn't Supposed to Be Killed Oscar Wilde"

Jesus Was A Pacifist, I Just Can't Believe That such a positive HUMAN Was intruded and tortured so much.

Nelson Mandela Was in Prison for Like 12 Years right? For the Crime of?...

Jose Mujica, The  Governor of Uruguay. And Old Dude, Was In not only Prison, Solitary Confinement for 7 Years.