Have No Pain.

Swig Your Penicillin With Wine.
Nobody has to Know That Your Heart Is Broken.
Nobody Will Ever Know.
Having Emotions Is a Liability, William Burroughs and Bukowski Warned me.
But I Just Wouldn't Listen.

I envy My Cat.
She never seems to have any Issues, She lives day by day.
But when she loves me she does by not expecting anything back.
I'm not trying to say we should always expect something from someone.
Im just stating that my cat has more emotional wisdom that i do.

I don't know how you are feeling but I get the little signals from everybody.
I've been trying to be sober, I'm a recovering existence escapist. They also call them alcoholics, drug addicts and some people play fucking dnd. Everybody has their drug,
To escape a meaningless existence.

Don't get me wrong.
Nietzsche would punch me in the face.
Im am not a nihilistic person as the vast majority of society will think.
I just think humans in mass are disgusting to serve  evil purposes.
Thank you sick fuck Freud, Special Thanks To Edward Bernays,
Dicks.
Life Doesn't have to be meaningless as long as you make your own purpose but never have that purpose to be dictated.

I believe that you can create your own meaning and that a human life matters. And That emotions are what makes you you.
It pains me that so many people don't want to understand that they are a big part of a fucking cog machine.

Luckily enough I had surrounded myself with people that don't want to be controlled or subdued.
It Sucks when you have to shallow your pride, Because that is the only spark of life that actually might matter.

I still have some plans, I won't die, I refuse to die, I might hit Nietzsche with my dick in my dreams.
Did you know he masturbated naked in tables in front of everybody? I read a book from someone recalling meeting Sartre, Apparently he did the same......


Maybe I should just listen to Camus He didin't masturbate  in public  in front of everybody as far as i know.
Like i might Have.